2025 Wrap-Up
2025 Wrap-Up
2025 was a difficult year for me.
Somehow, I survived.
After my heartbreak…one of the most difficult times for me to heal from…I became depressed. Six months in and I was still depressed and now hopeless. I was taking one step forward healing then sliding down the hill to start all over. I worked through pain in many creative ways:
I wrote 5 Novellas. The last 3 I published as 1 book because I couldn't emotionally handle publishing 3 more books, it was tearing me apart…all my real, raw, and ridiculous thoughts as I attempted to heal. And I never even read them…published as written.
I designed an adult coloring book, with a little help from a fr-(A)I-end.
I created a photo project as a way to let go of my pain. It didn't work. I had to stop when I was working on “As Beautiful As Ever”...one of the first things ExD said to me when we started chatting again in January 2024. The photo project was a little helpful, mentally and emotionally…but quickly took a turn for the worse. More than the tiny bit of relief I received, I realized how much I missed taking pics. A friend who saw them said I should enter them into award shows…but…that's not really my thing. I take pics for the love of it. It is a form of self-care that I tried to utilize as a creative, artistic, healing project.
Much like my 12 fucks of Christmas adventure I couldnt finish writing, it was too hard hard to finish some of my healing attempts.
I'm better at ignoring my pain now.
In 10 days…that'll be the hard part. December 30, 2024…the morning I woke up thinking I couldn't be more fulfilled in my relationships…my romantic love life was perfect. It was exactly what I wanted and needed at that time in my life.
Then he tore my heart out with one text, and then dragged it out for nearly 3 months because he wanted to remain friends…and…
Well that didn't work out.
Yes, I miss ExD, more than I ever knew was possible.
I'm not healed. I'm not all better. I'm just better at hiding my pain. I'm better at channeling my emotions, mostly through sexual avenues, to achieve emotional releases. I'm better at ignoring it and moving forward with my life, without thoughts of how it may affect him. I'm centering myself, what I need, and what my path has been since before ExD. Im back to me…as I was before ExD…only somehow, darker.
I learned a lot in 2025. Broken hearts may never heal…they just become duller as you learn to live with the pain, the emptiness, and sadness that now exists in a spot that was once happy.
I close my eyes and I can see his smiling face walking around the door of the trailer...how his eyes lit up every single time, since the first time we met. Then I cry for a bit…then I suck it up and wait for my next chance at an emotional release. I want him to live his best life, full of openness, exploration, and happiness…even if it's not with me.
Self Reminders:
There is no time limit on healing from a broken heart. Allow yourself time to feel, deal, and heal…or at least attempt to.
Fuck More —> Depressed Less
Fucking, for me, allows sexual healing, and offers me a platform to feel pain (emotionally) while feeling physical pleasure. Crying while fucking can be extremely healing for me…or at least offer a release of everything I've shoved, ignored, and justified inside myself so I could be ok and move on with my world.
Closure is overrated and unnecessary.
It's not up to me to manage someone else's karma. I have to stick to my plan, no matter how close it hits and how much it hurts. Suck it up, buttercup, your future is bright - don't derail it for a guy who broke you…and never looked back.
2025 I fucked a lot. I cried a lot while fucking.
There is something deep and beautiful about the emotional release I get from crying while fucking. It's temporary…but a release is a release. It's time for my brain to take control and do what it needs to so I can move forward, so I can cry less, think about pain less, exist less.
One day I stopped crying daily. I'm not sure when it happened.
Now I only cry when I'm unable to direct my thoughts away from the pain.
I distract myself mentally from 2025 as often as possible. Fucking. Music. Writing. Coloring. Creating. Anything to get a few minutes of distraction.
It's been a fucking year.
Metaphorically and Literally
But enough about my emotional mess of a year…just know if yours has hurt like mine, you're not alone.
2025 offered so many sexual experiences that have made impressions on me.
Here are just a few of my favorite stories from 2025 that include and inside look of a woman (me) who not only owns her sexuality, but explores it, celebrates it. 😈
Top 2025:
Favorite Gangbang:
https://www.kissesshorty.com/blog/record-breaking-gangbang-bna-december-2025
Favorite One-on-One Adventure:
https://www.kissesshorty.com/blog/hunting-for-cock
Favorite Vehicle Adventure:
https://www.patreon.com/posts/132138434?utm_campaign=postshare_creator&utm_content=android_share
Most Emotional to Write:
https://www.kissesshorty.com/blog/almost-anniversary-adventures-04-06-2025
Favorite NEW Adventure:
https://www.kissesshorty.com/blog/bs-birthday-bukkake
Favorite Adult Bookstore (gangbangs):
Berlin News Agency (BNA) New Jersey
Favorite Cuck Moment:
Fuck Boy came on my wedding ring as I had it in my mouth, and videoed it for b. to see. The video is what makes it my favorite. Great angle, huge load, my bright blue eyes looking into the camera…
It was a perfect shot, in more ways than one 😉
Favorite Condoms:
Trojan Raw - available in regular and magnum
Favorite Lingerie Shop:
Temu
Favorite Platform:
Fetlife
Fuck-It List Adventures Achieved:
Bukkake
Beat my gangbang record
Most Played Song of 2025:
Heroin by Jessie Murph
“Theres a violence in the way I long for you
And it's a war the way you love me like you do
I can't stop and I can't run and I can't choose
I can't seem to stay away”
“Like heroin, it broke my baby blues”
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I stayed away from him for 6 years…
Now, after a year together, I know he's my heroin. This song comes on and tears fill my eyes.
Now, most of the time I change the song and look forward:
2026 Theme Song:
Watch This by TAELA
“If you thought I was a bitch
Watch this
I could be a fucking lunatic
I'mma make you wanna pack it up and move out of the city
Guess you never shoulda started nothing with me
Cause babe I'm gonna finish it”
2026 Fuck-It List
Write an adventure with another writer
Visit 5 new adult bookstores
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Thank you supporters, fuck friends, readers, and sexy pervs for sharing a part of your 2025 with me. 😘
I look forward to many sexy adventures in the new year. 😈
Happy New Year!
🥂 to 2026 🥂
Kisses 💋
Shorty
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